To err is human...

happy, scared, contented, afraid, empty.

Stop indulging in negativity. It is a bottomless pit from which no one can save you, because even you yourself do not feel you deserve to be rescued.

Be kind to yourself even if the world is not.

Irrationality. To think that the whole world hates you / looks down on you. Do they really?

And if they do, which I believe they do, then does it really matter? Very few people (can count with 1 hand) can actually have the love of everyone around them. I had hoped I'd be one of the elite few.. but nah...

So don't hope that your boss and colleagues will be kind to you after you make countless mistakes. People will lose faith in you after each mistake, small or big, and it'll take time to regain that trust.

Jia you. Hang in there. You will make it one day.

Fix your eyes on the ultimate prize, and you will do more than to survive.