life is very unfair. with things happening to u tt u wish dint happen to u.. why do some people get all the chances in life, while some get none at all.. its unfair.

im realli wondering wat is impt to me.. comfort on this earth or in God? i noe the model answer but wat is my heart saying rite now? if i reali tink its God then why do i face so mani decision making problems now? shouldnt tings be more straightforward?

sometimes i wish i were blind, so i wont see all tt is happening around me or pictures tt can dig up some hidden emotions.. deaf so i dun haf to hear all the problems tt others r facing or worse how happy others r while im suffering.. blur (more blur than i alreadi m) so i dun haf to be so sensitive to all tts happening.. n i feel less pain..

i wanna go heaven now