thanks guys, for being there for me, when i was really going down. i know yall did not volunteer to be there but im still glad that yall were around.

amazing how God can turn my perspective in half an hour. from being on the verge of tears of stress and misery, to tears of joy. it is priceless to have God.

it is so easy to feel disappointed. to look at someone and wonder how long it would take for me to give up. so often i have told myself to just give up and let things go as they are. but in the end i still am unable to let go of the friendship. then i do the ultimate silly thing and try to talk to you. and i get hurt yet again. for how long do you think this friendship will last? do you even treasure it the way that i do?

i am starting to have doubts on how far i can go and how long i can last.