exhausted

>< i jus wanna apologise to all u out there who have been brushed off by me. im in serious sleep depravation. havent rested properly since 2 weeks b4 exams. tts like more than a mth ago. sigh. im realli tired, but i still have so much to do i realli dunno how i can handle.

recentli, i have formed some new habit: pulling my hair. tts horrible isnt it. but its a habit n i seem to pull my hair very often.. haha so i guess soon yall will see a balding grace=p

everything has been so hectic n tiring. i haf lost all energy. no energy to deal with all those self esteem problems, no energy to deal with all the duties i haf in fellowship like welcoming the newcomers, no energy to do any housework, no energy for anything. ZILT. ZILCH. feel so drained, feel so useless. i wanna do alot for God but i cant seem to do anything rite. as u all haf noticed, i seem to smile alot less recentli. not surprising, considering i stone 90% of the day. argh. wanna pull my hair again.

suddenli i feel like i haf no one to talk to. i haf so much to talk abt, so much i need advice on n i dunno who to talk to -cries- God seems so silent!!! its frustrating. sigh but my God is the creator of wateva is seen in the fotos above. i shall trust in Him.