Perhaps the most common malady of soul in our sophisticated age today is loneliness. Whether married or single, rich or poor, a teenager, mid-lifer, or senior citizen, loneliness can strike and depart with the sudden intensity of a summer storm or linger like an artic winter.

We can be lonely while in the center of activity at work or home. Laughter and busyness may surround us, but they cannot pierce the darkness of our loneliness. While we sometimes need brief seasons of solitude for God to refresh and renew our weary souls, protracted times of isolation can bring numbing loneliness of the soul. There are no easy answers for handling loneliness. There are no prefabricated steps out of the wilderness, out of the quagmire. Our loneliness can become a pathway to God. It may not be a well-marked trail (for each person must walk his own); but God will illumine the path to the man, woman, or young person willing to turn to Him in their pain.

i hate being me. if i were God i wouldnt even come into existence. but ya.. im not God. darn.

what does frenship mean? go shopping together? wear the same clothes? always sharing fun stories? i dunno. if this is frenship then i can forget about having one.

balance. balance is everything. balance is what keeps everything going. im so screwed.

rite now i need a bed when i can sleep n never get up. i dun wanna see anymore. i dun wanna feel anymore. i wanna rest.