ultimate stupidity

i realize i can be pretty stubborn when i want to. talk about once bitten, forever live in fear. i live in fear, but i still don't mind living in it for the little lessons i get out of the bitting. strange. sometimes i wonder why i go thru all that for the little lessons. is it worth it?

i think i'll get indigestion from everything that i have on my plate. haha. maybe i already have indigestions. how do i know? i have been arguing with my parents over every little thing recently. a big neon sign that something is wrong with me.

why am i as busy as a working adult, altho i am a student?