tired

dunno if i made the wrong choice to teach tuition or not. feel like im being exploited. i dunno how to teach tuition but when i ask to raise the tuition fees, the person requests to reduce no. of hours instead. isnt tt worse for me. half hr less per session onli.. n i suspect all the other siblings will come ask qns too. sigh. never work for ur relatives unless u noe them to be very generous. i had this aunt who was so super generous tt by helping out at her stall for free (cos she dint invite me i jus went to help) she gave me $200 for a few hours. sigh. now, feel exploited. i guess i shall try first loh. if realli cant cope then i shall quit. learn not to promise too easily, learn not to assume tt all relatives are nice.

today's combine worship was good i guess. i tot it was horrible cos i was so distracted the whole time by the words.. n the nerves.. but apparentli everyone else dint notice tt my nerves were killing me.. n i was the onli one to notice the mistakes i made.. ok.. thank God. haha onli reason i can find is tt God used me to help his people worship but i was too occupied by the technicalities tt i couldnt worship. but i did say i wont do it again.. n i reali dun wanna do it again. thank GOd for resolutions too.

sch is starting to be a drag. hafen realli enjoyed myself for some time. o well.. tts life.