really tired. lonely. scared.

exams are coming and i do not know what to expect anymore. i have a very bad feeling about this. somehow, after improving by 0.1 last sem, my expectations have gone higher. but i have not studied enough for it. which just makes things worse. i need to pick topics but i do not know how to. trust is very very scary.

somehow, bad things always come at the same time. and when you are asked to choose one to solve, you do not know if you can trust anyone else to solve the rest. so yes, i took the leap of faith, and no one else solved the rest. what does this teach me? get enough rest the day before.

we can all hold only one 2 hand item at one time. 2 hands, 2 feet, 1 heart to pump blood to all of them. 1 brain. how to multitask? not too sure about that. i guess thats what makes us human. limited creatures we all. unable to be at a few places at the same time.

relationships are strange things. you need them. but at the same time, they drain alot of energy from you. all relationships require investment. but how much do you have to invest? we are, after all, limited beings.

i need God. i need Him to solve my problems. i need Him to comfort me and tell me everything will turn out fine.

wait. He has already done that. its just that i have not given him my problems yet. argh.