self-centeredness

im getting tired of having to counsel pple who are jus too self centered and too caught up in self pity. most pple jus fail to see tt there are so mani pple out there who need their help too. most jus do not care abt how others r n can onli see how miserable life is for them.

the world is not jus abt u, u noe? why dont u stop thinking of how horrible things are and how horrible pple are treating u n start thinking abt how u make pple feel? perhaps wat u feel is cos of wat u make pple feel? sigh. i have run out of things to say and i certainly do not want to say anymore. if u think its better for u to stay where u r, i suggest u get professional help.

however, i have to admit that this refers to me too. when im angry, i get into the unrighteous anger mode n i start to do things tt i regret later. justified i may be, but the things i do out of tt anger aren't. im really tired of everything. all this unfairness tt i feel, all this tiredness of having to do unappreciated labour, all this having to counsel when i myself feel like shit, having to smile when i feel so sad, having to pay attention when i m so so tired n i don't even noe wats going on. sigh. i guess everyone feels this too, or at least i tell myself tt. n i see potential to learn more abt leaning on God for strength. as of now, i jus pray for good rest n renewed strength. i noe there are alot of pple who depend on me for support n listening ear. i do not want to lose tt. so i guess i shall have to continue maintaining status quo. God help me not to blow up with too much honesty.=/