why do i dislike you? good question. how do i choose who i am attracted to and who i am not? perhaps when you have too many of my faults (past and present) i find you irritating. i changed because i know i should not be like this anymore. why can't you go and change too? stop thinking you are better than anyone else. because you are not. neither am i better than you. we are all equal before Him.

when i look back i must really thank You. without You i would not be the person i am today. i was a totally different person last time. now, You changed me so i can stop hating myself. please do not stop here. i still want to improve.

must go back to the study mode soon. i still like to sleep in and chat online. SIGH.