do u sometimes feel like you've let someone down? it sucks when u feel tt way.. esp when the person loves u so much. time to stop getting distracted and focus on Him. who cares what lies in store for me in my future? all tt matters now is tt i haf Him NOW.

knowing you Jesus, Knowing You. there is no greater thing.

went out with hannah joel n zj today.. went around eating, talking crap n all.. haha went to watch this carnival thingy at raffles city.. kinda funny tho.. had this part where the guy has a bicycle tt goes in the opposite direction u want it to go.. so if u turn left u will go right n all.. so as long as a volunteer can go in a straight line for 3m n not touch the ground the volunteer will get $10.. haha most pple who went up were guys so i guess guys like to show off.. hehe i think u guys r boo-ing me now huh.. haha then there was this other part where this guy has a bullseye at his back.. then ur supposed to throw balls at his back n the balls will stick to his back.. n the number of balls will earn u some key chain la.. but the prob is tt the key chains r on the inside of his jacket.. so his jacket was unbuttoned n everytime he wants u to choose a keychain he opens his jacket to u like a flasher!!! hahaha so we called him the flasher.. haha dint spend much time looking at the rest of the games but i guess the fun part abt today was tt we jus talked nonsense n laffed so hard.. =D

thank you.. all 4 of u for coming out at such short notice.. hehe really made me feel very loved.. i guess its inevitable tt we feel lonely sometimes but i guess its a blessing to haf yall around.. haha

Perhaps the most common malady of soul in our sophisticated age today is loneliness. Whether married or single, rich or poor, a teenager, mid-lifer, or senior citizen, loneliness can strike and depart with the sudden intensity of a summer storm or linger like an artic winter.

We can be lonely while in the center of activity at work or home. Laughter and busyness may surround us, but they cannot pierce the darkness of our loneliness. While we sometimes need brief seasons of solitude for God to refresh and renew our weary souls, protracted times of isolation can bring numbing loneliness of the soul. There are no easy answers for handling loneliness. There are no prefabricated steps out of the wilderness, out of the quagmire. Our loneliness can become a pathway to God. It may not be a well-marked trail (for each person must walk his own); but God will illumine the path to the man, woman, or young person willing to turn to Him in their pain.

i hate being me. if i were God i wouldnt even come into existence. but ya.. im not God. darn.

what does frenship mean? go shopping together? wear the same clothes? always sharing fun stories? i dunno. if this is frenship then i can forget about having one.

balance. balance is everything. balance is what keeps everything going. im so screwed.

rite now i need a bed when i can sleep n never get up. i dun wanna see anymore. i dun wanna feel anymore. i wanna rest.

i've a feeling this post is gonna sound like anna's.. haa

went to meet my sec sch fren (yes annalisa) at city hall today.. kinda tot tt it may be awkward cos we hafen seen each other for so long. or spoke much to each other for tt matter.. but strangely from the moment we saw each other we jus talked non stop! haha kinda funny actually. reminded me of wat my physics teacher said.. mr loh said tt sec sch frens will last the longest..

o both of us cut our hair!! haha we used to haf long hair tog.. now we both haf short hair tog!! haha










this is crazy!! haha but ya.. very fun.. went to eat thai express.. then suddenli anna felt like eating mud pie.. haha so we walked to city link.. to tcc.. onli to realise tt she got the wrong place -_-.. haha was so dumb seeing two gals go in, take the menu n decide to walk out of tcc.. haha then we finally decided tt she was looking for coffee club.. haha n thank God i noe where coffee club is.. or we would haf ended up in macdonalds.. for once the wheels haf turned.. anna (the one who is supposed to haf wonderful memory n sense of direction) gets the wrong place.. n I (the ever blur one) should get the right place.. tsk tsk.. i guess my memory is not so bad after all huh.. heheheh i can see all u pple out there shaking ur heads.. haha

anw ya.. look forward to the next octagon outing when the rest of the octagonites come back to spore.. haha then we can go try my fav dish.. in TCC.. haha n this time im sure its TCC.. hahaa

presenting...

i've heard too many comments that i should go cut my hair=D so ya.. decided to cut it.. hafen had such short hair since i was a few mths old.. hafen had such short fringe since a few mths old either.. haha a little drastic dun u think? i jus went in n told the hairdresser i wanted a change n snip! all tt long hair gone! haha covered the floor.. but until now when i look in the mirror i cant see myself.. hehe.. for those of u who haf not seen me.. im sorry.. blogspot doesnt let me upload my latest foto.. hehe so all i can say is tt when u see me.. hold ur jaw.. haha cos i wont be surprised if u start screaming n all.. even my mom's jaw fell.. haha n she hates my new hairstyle. doesnt look like me anymore.. hehe talk abt getting refreshed huh;)

was watching my mom sleep this morning.. realized smth.. my mom is growing old. kinda scared me a bit.. used to think of her as superwoman. wanted to be like her all along, strong in character, persevering, trusting, long suffering.. now i look at her n i cant help but feel like im gonna lose her soon.. one of hte two pillars in my life.. its an irony when i think of how in the past i used to hate her so much.. used to make her angry everyday.. now i feel afraid to lose her. i noe its inevitable but i still feel the fear.. sigh i think im getting old too..

was sick the past two days.. couldnt really get out of bed or move much.. was getting worried abt today n the "party".. cos im hte onli leader left.. but hey i guess GOd really really loves me.. once again he has answered my prayers.. the pain is gone!! everyone say: thank God! yup.. so i can finally go to ruthie's house for hte party.. hope everyone can feel more open about sharing!!

its easy to de-rail when u travel too fast. so when u cant slow down, the next best thing is to pray real hard. so many expectations to meet. sometimes i wish i could choose to be blind for awhile, deaf for a while.. or at least haf a heart of stone - cold n un-emotional. if we could ctrl + Z in life, i think no one would move on cos we'll all be too busy undoing our mistakes.

sometimes God surprises u with unexpected stuff.. n u jus cant help but smile n thank God. its these little joys tt keep me going. thanks to all u darlings out there (guys n gals alike) for bringing little joys to my life. i thank you from the bottom of my heart.

im such a proud person, im unworthy of ur love or ur blessings, but u keep pouring ur love on me.. so much that i cant help but overflow n pour tt love onto others around me. i noe im not worthy to keep tt love of urs. all i ask is tt u never let me run dry, so tt i can always love everyone.

lame stuff!!

to all those who r stressed. here's a de-stresser.. give a round of applause to fiona loi!! hahahaha

let me tell you a story...how the name hamburger came aboutonce a upon a time, there was a boy by the name of Ham. Ham loved his hamburgers.really really really very much. one day, as he was going to chomp down on his lovely burger, his mommy called: " Ham!! come and pack your bed!"Ham, being a good boy, got up to help mommy. but just as he was going, he didnt want to leave his burger alone. so he wrote a sign: Ham's Burger. in the hope that no one would eat his burger. however, after his chores, he forgot all about it. the burger braved winds, and rain and the scorching heat. the sign did as well... until due to the weathering (geog) the 's got weathered away, leaving behind Ham-Burger.hahahahahhahahaha..

let me tell you another story...How the name coca cola came aboutonce a upon a time, there was a teenager, by the name of Coca. He was tanned. really tanned at birth, hence his mom called him Coca cos he was as dark as a Cocoa bean. Coca grew up to become a strong man. he found a job in a restaurant as a busboy. he had to run errands for everyone. one day the chef called him: " COCA! BRING ME THE PORK FROM THE FREEZER AND MAKE IT SNAPPY!!!"so Coca went to get it... finally he passed it to the chef. the chef was making this really really sweet drink. because it was the first of its kind, he could not think up of a name. he looked up to see Coca jumping and fidgeting about.chef: " Coca, what are you doing?"coca: " boss, Coca Cold la "EUREKA!

and finally one last story.....How the name Television was derivedthere was a little girl called thelma. her surname was lee. so she is Thelma Lee. Thelma was a little girl who loved science. she dreamt of it, thought of it and spoke of it.but one day, thelma met with an accident. she couldnt see anymore. we would think it would be sad, but No! it did not discourage thelma from pursuing her passion! one day, as Thelma was doing an experiment. she accidentally mixed 2 very different chemicals together and BOOOOOM!!!! there was an explosion!THELMA COULD SEE AGAIN!!!! it was a miracle! thelma called her newfound creation the ThelleeVision. hahahahhahaha..

dont you just loveit!? ahahahhahaha