jus tot of an analogy..
a few of us found a wallet today.. then it kinda got me thinking about this analogy:
i feel like a wallet with all e money spent.. im empty.. with no purpose for my existance..
ya.. i tink its kinda approapriate..
Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. Galatians 6:9
a few of us found a wallet today.. then it kinda got me thinking about this analogy:
feeling very drained today. like my entire life is gone.. there is no meaning to doing anything anymore.
jus a little conversation i had with my bro-in-christ. n i tink i should write this down so i can constantly remind myself to keep my pride in check.. hope this encourages all u out there!
was just thinking thru things just now and i decided that i should post here.
how do u expect me to trust u when ur change in character is so drastic? first u say u wanna change n i wanted to believe in u n give u a 2nd chance. but within a few weeks u change so drastically!! n u blame others for ur change! wat on earth r u trying to do? not only r u causing hurt to us but also to ur own reputation. i realli pity ur frens.. because they do not see the real u. wat do u want me to do? believe in u again? how to? u have totally betrayed my trust n hope in u. to give u a 2nd chance? how to? how to give u chances when all i can remember is ur failure? i guess all i can do is jus shut up n pray. cos tts all i can do.
i have sinned, i am unclean. i need God.
dunno if i made the wrong choice to teach tuition or not. feel like im being exploited. i dunno how to teach tuition but when i ask to raise the tuition fees, the person requests to reduce no. of hours instead. isnt tt worse for me. half hr less per session onli.. n i suspect all the other siblings will come ask qns too. sigh. never work for ur relatives unless u noe them to be very generous. i had this aunt who was so super generous tt by helping out at her stall for free (cos she dint invite me i jus went to help) she gave me $200 for a few hours. sigh. now, feel exploited. i guess i shall try first loh. if realli cant cope then i shall quit. learn not to promise too easily, learn not to assume tt all relatives are nice.
remind me never to take up anything this challenging again. no more assumptions and no more expectations. thank God for pple who r conscientious and know me well enuff n can work with me.